Towards the beginning of the semester during our Beauty for Ashes retreat for the ladies of CGA, I received a this note from a friend:
‘She got the image of a storm at sea. A violent storm where giant waves are crashing and thunder is striking. There’s a boat caught in the storm, and as everyone on board hides in total fear…a child runs to the wheel and begins guiding the boat. She has the hugest smile and is laughing, because instead of feeling fear, she sees it as a great adventure. She isn’t stopped by the fact that she doesn’t know how to drive a boat. Sometimes her eyes aren’t even open because she’s so lost in the adventure. She’s full of trust…because she’s not actually the one driving it. He’s calling you to be this child. Trust Him in the storm. ‘
When I first received this, I really did not see myself in the storm and to be honest did not really see one coming. That is because I allowed myself to be come a little too comfortable and allowing myself to rest in the things that were not going to actually give me rest. And now I have opened my eyes and I see that I am looking up at the eye of the storm and now is the time to act.
Something that the Lord was doing on the race last year was making me into a Fearless Woman of Him. It started out slow, because he knew that we had to take some baby steps, facing the fears and lies that I have allowed to take root in my heart. Soon it became every day I was facing a fear to then at the end it was more like facing multiple fears a day. As I have gotten home, I can see how this has continued in facing fears every day and what it means to truly walk as a Fearless Woman. Now is the time to walk into this storm fearless and know that I do not need to be in control. I have learned and seen how trustworthy he is but I am not going to lie sometimes it is hard to let go of the control.
Along with that image she got she also put, “What good is faith if you only have it when you don’t need it?” It hit me this morning after reading my Jesus Calling devotion and then re-reading this piece of paper she gave me; I have great faith and I know this and I have seen myself walk in it and know it is the time to really activate it and just be still. No matter what I do the Lord’s will will be done and right now I just need to grab a hold of the wheel in the midst of the storm. Just close my eyes and laugh in the face of fear. Here is to the hardships and the storms because I know so well the greatness that comes from them and the character that it builds. I do not need to worry or be anxious because God has it and I am just along for the journey He has created me for. And the best part…I am not alone in doing this journey because I know that he is standing right beside me holding my hand walking with me. He is the most trustworthy anchor, the only one I need.
