It all started with a question from Ashley: “Have you thought about joining the team?” What?!? I do not know if this is what God has for me. No way I thought he wanted me to come on staff with the Admissions Department and be a mobilizer. Maybe after being a mobilizer for a little bit I would do some squad leading. No way does he want me to join the Long Term Team. This one question caused a reaction and a month long discussion with the Lord on what he was doing and asking him for clarity.
Every morning I would wake up with Nepal on my mind and it continued to stay there throughout the day, just sitting in the back of my mind waiting for me to green light it. I asked the Lord to give me a direct confirmation or have someone tell me that I was supposed to join the team. But the thing I have noticed lately is that when it comes to big decisions for my life God tends to go on mute. I would frantically search for the remote trying to unmute him, and all I got was just crickets. One morning I woke up, and like all mornings, Nepal was on my mind. This morning was different because there was a sudden peace that fell over me, and I felt one hundred percent peaceful and excited about packing everything to move Nepal the next day. But still, I wanted the Lord to tell me to go.
I was told by three different people in four days’ time to listen to a podcast by Bethel called God On Mute. I figured after the third person told me to do this, that maybe God was telling me something through others. I can be a little stubborn some times. I started listening to the podcast and instantly my mind was blown, and right there it was like God just ninja my mind. The podcast was saying how we are so often operating with a red light until God green lights a decision or choice. Instead, we should be living where we green light it until the Lord red lights it, because we are in a relationship with the Lord and that means we know his heart. Along with that he has built characteristics, desires, and dreams in us. It was right then that I knew I needed to stop begging for clarity and confirmation, and just go for it. Green light it!
That is exactly what I did. In that following week I went up to Ashley and just smiled at her. She knew right then and there that I was going for it. You must be wondering what I went for? Welp, at the beginning of May I started the interview process with Adventures in Missions to join the Long Term Missions team to Nepal. And a couple of weeks ago I found out that I have been officially accepted to the Nepal Team!!!
I cannot tell you how excited I am for what a surprise and wonderful future God has handed me. So right now, in this season, I refer to God as Jehovah Sneaky. There are so many reasons for this name right now, but some of the biggest ones are Nepal and my friendship with Ashley. The Lord has used her in some pretty sneaky ways in my life, and I absolutely love it. One way is when she was declaring to her discipler, from the beginning, that I was going to Nepal and just didn’t know it yet. She knew this whole time that I was going to be a part of the team, along with some of my other team members. I seriously cannot tell you how much God has a sense of humor. In this season with his sneakiness it is making me feel, not only, his love but also his fun side. Ugh, I just love him y’all!
